I wanna marry you Nikole, I cant get over you and I dont think I ever will.
Why is it that when I have something that makes me happy for a while, it always seems to be too much for me? Too much that its taken away from me unexpected….soon, the happiness I have right now will move away (again). It hurts but not as much, yet….
So much in my head, a lot of questions that I need answers too.
1. Why did my best friend Tracy stopped talking to me?
2. Why do I care more about others than my own family?
3. Am I the only one who cares about having love and someones careness?
4. Why do I get attached easily?
5. Why do we care for people who don’t care about us?
6. How can I stop my emotional pain?
7. How can I forget about someone that I care for more than my own life?
8. How did my best friend forget about me?
9. Why do I feel so weak?
10. Why do I let them use me?
11. Why do they take me for granted when I show them I care?
12. Why cant I have my answers?
Please god help me, I have my family right here with me but I want someone. I want a partner to love me and to spend time with and create memories together, I want to stay with that partner and live our lives together forever and happy.
So lost and more confused than ever…. I got what I needed and now I really don’t know what to do with it. All my hope, my faith and motivation has faded. There’s this one person that has been in my life for a few months now and sometimes it seems like she’s the key to the next door I need to open. She’s awesome, she has pushed me a bit because she motivates herself so that has helped me. When I see her falling a bit though Im there to pick her up and let her see she’s doing it all great. I’m scared though, I don’t want to get hurt again….
Girls today move on quick, forget about the feelings once they had, forget about happiness and actually become stronger than what they already are. I’m a guy who wants to be happy and loved, who doesn’t care about sex like others do. All I want is love and a girl/woman who coukd care for me and see what I do for her and never leave me for any little thing or small argument. Sometimes I feel like ill always be alone 3
Watching the notebook doesn’t help. As much as I try not to care about her or think about her I still do everyday. My heart feels for her and I don’t know what to do, in a way I kinda know actually but it will be a crazy thing to do and honestly I’m afraid of doing it. Not because I would have to leave my family but because I would put my everything on it and what if she doesn’t?
So many girls around me and I still want you and only you…I LOVE YOU NIKOLE
I still miss Nikole :/
How do you expect me to treat you after you made it clear to me that we have nothing anymore? You’re happy I accepted you in my life, but do you care about what makes me happy? Do you care how much I’m hurting for you? The pain grew more and it keeps growing everyday because I’m always alone, because I’m here thinking of you and questioning myself why did you change? What made you who you are right now? Fuck It though, ill let karma get you.
I finally let her go, I didnt want to but I had to because she wanted to stay friends… I love her too much to be just friends. Im really hurt but what can I do? What else can I do? I definitely know i wont love like that ever again. Theres no other girl like her in my life, there wont be another one like her. I still hope she comes back though, but when she does i hope its not too late.